BLOG MERGE

Ok to all 2 ppl and future me who read my blog whats good!!! I recently posted 11 new/old posts becasue my last blog may have ben compromised. I realized that since my ex found it once before I'd delete my old blog, until I found out that I could export it then import it onto my new blog, which is linked to absolutely nowhere. Just cuz here is the synopsis of what my first old blog for:

A blog about how my third year in college has been so far, and things in relation to my life as a IST major instead of an engineering major.
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OK so yea, I just got home from being stood up by a girl who ive been diggin for a while and we never really made any plans, we just talked a bunch and hung out once but never could find the time to hang out again. You see what sucks is that I'm so freakin flexible when I make plans that I cant just tell someone what to do, I try to see what they want to do I try to meet them halfway. But fuck it cuz I only had about $30 bucks in my pocket so I kinda glad I didnt have to spend it all.

I tok this chic to the movies last week to see "funny people" and I enjoyed the movie, but I was certainly very reluctant to pay. She waled up to the desk as if she was gonna pay for herself, but I was happy to see that she was so willing to carry her wieght that I carried it for her. I had a movie pass anyways, so I just paid the 12.50 it. It felt good, but i kinda felt like that since she wasnt my girl that I shouldnt have paid for her so I thought about the things I couldve paid for
anywasy..... idont know where im going with this but yea, i feel like being cheap sometimes but i cant cuz sum girls deserve my nice-ness

and others are just bitches.


I guess Im just pissed off.........Im always pissed off, in fact I only write to you when Im pissed off dont ask me why



yea so today I did my FAFSA today, which is SUPER late and I was ultra worried that the deadline had passed so I wouldnt get financial aid therefore not being able to complete my last few credits I really need to graduate. BUT I filled it out and I have until friday to call back my school and let them know whats going on. I just have to call my advisor in the morn before work and I should be good hopefully. Then I gotta find out how much to take out in loans and then buy a car hopefully...hahahha fat chance....


Yea im also kinda pissed cuz I have this twitter acct, and I use it almost prolly about 10 times a day. I write all my lil things and smart comments and fuck my life moments and cool things I see that I know I will cherish one day in a few sentences and I can see other ppls stuff. THe cool thing about my twitter account was completely uncensored and I was ALMOST as honest on it as I have been on this blog.....until now. My ex's best frined just got on it and decided to follow me now. shes actually been on it for a while, like a month or so and I didnt think she would say anything to my ex who I'am very much still involved with and actually just got out of a HUGE problem soooo yea...............

but I wrote about going to hang out with this chic and only having 30 bucks and thats when it hit me, that virtually everything I put up can be used against me....major suckage, cuz now i have to censor everything I put up there and ask myself every time i post "would L get mad at me for this?" which is the pain in the ass but I have become good at hiding my emeotions and censoring myself being in NYC for this summer.
but that wont last for long, so I need to put them somewhere.........

which is what I have you for....

Ive started writing poems and raps again......




Im thinking of blocking her friend from seeing my stuff and continuing on my honest streak.....im really not fully and completely honest with any1 else but myslef. I dont know why. Whoever is reading this right now, I am being honest with you right now. You have gotten close enough to the real me. You are the most important person to me. I mean there are others who are important to me, but you have somehow reached a level I right think there will never be a person but me and GOD will be.

rambling......

watching the daily show with john stewart....i dont know why but lately ive been digging this and the colbert report---dont ask me why. Later..........