womenvsbitches

Tonight was game four of the celtics finals game against the lakers. we won. But we are a far way off from winning the ship again and i honestly dont think we'll make it there this time.

But who am I to say that....

How do you beat "the other" guy? or really im the other guy (kind of) and shes hanging around " the guy she's seeing" but still invites me over to watch the game and for dinner and stuff. Fuck you. Dont welcome me to stay the night then have me sleep on the couch. Dont play with my emotions. My line brothers says theres so many ways I could got something else out of it. He says I should do like he does and start treating these bitches like the whores they are. Im going to set a new plan in motion....

fuck my unproductive ass.................................

Im going to be that guy that everyone wants to get to know. Im gonna buy a new guitar, im gonna start my nine exercise ab circuit, and Im gonna get that job and buy my car. and breeze past them all when they try to stop me and slow me down. You see for the last 23 yrs of my life ive cared more about the emotional connection to things then progressing past them. And the more I see ppl blow me of and celebrities and rappers and singers grow and gain fame I realize life is about what your doing, and what you've gotten doing it. This simple bitch P is only attracted to guys who rap and sing. I do niether (in public at least). Im just a college graduate looking to get a job and make something of myself. but no, hoes can never be satisfied, the gotta play hard to get. Shes goin on the backburner for now cuz that bitch's attention span is too short for my liking, but I know what needs to be done now. Fuck everyone. Literally fuck them all. except your immediately family and that one or two best friends----fuck. them. all. They're all tryin to figure out how to make thier quick buck so whats the point in being super nice to everyone and wanting to be everyones friend and help everyone I meet? Nada. Zilch. zero. gets you no where. So im going to turn things around and start making something of myself. All I have to do is look at the deadbeat low life father I have and do exactly the opposite of what he did with his life. But it seems I cant break this curse of low to none productivity on a consistent basis. But no one but me can do it

heres to bustin my ass for the rest of my life.....

I stay racin the world, but i cant keep up.

its like im in another league, and im tore up,

its like always im always gettin beat, from the floor up,

i come in last; you put your feet up.

but im bout to put them boosters on,

so look out here I come,

before you know you started,

you look up and the race is won.

indulge

I had to create a separate post just for my feelings on shrooms... I ran the shower cuz Im coming down but I just have to tell you how i feel right now before I go rinse this all off

IT FEELS INCREDIBLE!!!!!!
its amazing........
i want anything and everything
i kept seeing these flashes in the room at random places
I felt like i could tell what was going to happen--my phone rang and my roomate said he could see me and I start looking through the window and I knew he was playing a trick on me but I still got up and looked around and out the window like a retard

I saw the screen of my iPhone get big and shrink randomly

I freaked out when I saw the shadow of my fan on the ground

I gave a random ass tour to a random as Realtor and a potential buyer--hoping they couldnt sense I was high off SHROOMS!!!

this girl tried to holla thru txt and I had to ignore it cuz I simply cant deal with outsiders who try to judge you when crazy shit like this goes down

I cracked a lot of good jokes...
taught some people how to jerk...
played some video games...
crowd ducked....



today was a good day

on this day may 26

TOday issss............


--- Its carlos's bday and I decided to take shrooms with him...dont judge me....
and this is what it feels like right now
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H9W9rc-P9UQ




I fought myslef on when to write in this thing agian. I guess i just didnt want to face the music of today...the day... I dont know who could be looking at my thoughts, or who could be trying to see something they shouldnt for whatever reasons (trying to hurt me or use some things against me but its ok.....................................................................fuck you.)


I feel great right now. its fuckin hot as balls in this room in this house in this city. My palms are sweaty as ball right now.
but I still feel great though.
Thank God for drugs.
Its incredible the things Ive done today.
Nothing. Ive done absolutely nothing today.
fuck my phone right now, i need to get these thoughts on paper right now. or on screen. lawl.
fuck that new age short type shortcut bullshit its pissing me off. its been pissing me off for while now.
You know how some have a "good cry"? I need a good fight right about now.


Music is the answer to everything. Literally, everything. I wish I could express my feelings and thoughts and interpretations in another other than words--fuck words, im too good at them.
I want to express myself through sound, I want to be on a complete other level and just blow up, but for the fact that I'm am confined to the normality of this world we call planet earth I am reduced to the majority of the percentage and work the 9-5 I feel i am destined to do anything but.

Incredible, I know. But what can you do when your too scared to take a chance? because your life may depend on it....

but fuck it, I take this meduim as way to expound, if you will, on the depths of my mind and expel what ive been keeping locked up inside out. I feel i must express myself someway somehow. but the problem is i dont think there is any one way or form or anomolie that can take the being that is me. I must face the....."music" if you will...............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
this piece of shit computer wont even hold on


Today is the day.........................
i graduated from college.
I need money.
I need a job.

I got a call today, for an interview to work for a web design team or whatever... i don't know the details nor was I smart enough to get them, so all day ive been thinking thinking thinking about what Im gonna do....what am I going to do?
I gotta pack
I gotta call these people
I gotta get rid of my cuse shit
i gotta
i gotta
i gotta

I dont want to leave.

but Ive been floating around here for two weeks aimlessly.....and now that i've found a destination its like i dont want to go there. Talking to my 'girlfriend' right now made me realize something about me.............
and I guess im coming down now..........
but I want to leave an impact on this earth. I want change something or be someone important....
I want to leave a legacy. I have an identity and i want it be known all over the globe forever.






Lets see how serious i am when I wake up tomorrow.............