"Siempre hay un superheroe
Si la dejas caliente
Un tipo llega y te la resuelve
Y no es superman
Siempre hay un superheroe
Si la dejas caliente
Un tipo llega y te la resuelve
Y no es superman..."
Alexis y Fido - Superheroes
Today was a crazy day. This weekend was a crazy weekend. I went 2/3 by the way, so good shit.
And you know whats really funny. The girl im seriously seeing is writing her feelings about what I say about things like her body and the stuff we talk about over in her blog and it is hilarious. I really hope to God that no1 else finds this blog becasue I will be in a huge pile of shit if any female i know gets thier hands on this. I even paranoid to send a link to this to my best friend in Germany away in the army, but he wants to know whats been going on with me so Im going to give him it all.
Ok so lets take a head count of the females on my plate right now that are actualy doable right now. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7.8. Wow. And trust me, I wouldnt be gassing my own head in a blog that no1 will ever see for years and years. crazy, so thats like 2 white chicks on black and the rest spanish lol. Awesome. Oh yea and over time Ive picked up this incrediby disgusting ability to write 'lol' at any given time. You can thank FB and females for that. But yea, I got the ladies right now and I am sooooooo loving bieng single its not even funny.
Well anyways, today is almost the last day in march and I need to get a move on with my Fafsa and my classes for next semester. I am so freakin screwed. Once again, I will not get the classes I want and once again I will be taking out a huge freakin loan to pay for it all. And that will be the hard part becasue my credit is absolutely horrible.
SO my pledges have a week until they cross. They actually have 4 days left and they are just going thru the final stages of thier process and I cannot believ how much they have grown. I cant believe how different they look from when they started and I cannot believe that after it was just me and J by oursleves to bieng a frat of 22 ppl big. This is incredible and I really dont even know what to say or think.
You knwo what I hate about myslef? I am really really good at getting girls, but I am really bad at anything competitive. I really hate it cuz it takes away any cocky factor I may want to throw in during the gameplay of getting to know a female. And it sucks cuz every game I every play with my bros, they liek " oh he sucks ill play him" and if I do play a game, I have to be super humble or I wont win. When Im not I will always ALWAYS lose bieng cocky.
I am very scared becasue I wish that I could take some of my girl getting skill power away and im tiredddddddddddd
Monday, March 30, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
this blog is str8 ch33sE
"......Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you....."
30 Seconds to Mars - The Kill
Good Song.
Wow, I really wrote poetry last time? OD. Doesn't matter cuz nobody really reads this blog anyways.
Today is Monday. Great. I looked out the window and saw the sun, and being the middle of march walked out of the house with a hoodie on, only to realize it was 25 degrees outside and that I had been fooled. Again.
have been feeling very foolish as of late. This feeling has been caused by many different events that have happened as of current. I drove my best friends BW all weekend and burned his clutch every minute. I sent a short message to my ex, and got some bogus premeditated bitchy msg back, and then I sent her a text saying good job in her show and got no reply. I am so freakin done its not even funny.
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You know when I started writing this, my day was feeling kind of sucky, but now, I end this day feeling good. I had some good quality time with three good friends, and that told me I was doing something right. Im still working on applying for grad school but the application has come to a stand still now that I am off spring break. I am also trying to graduate this coming May yet for the fact that have 21 more credits to complete, I will be be here for a while longer. Even though I am not stressing out as much as I should be, there is a great chance that I wont be able to come back if I don't get a loan to. This truly bothers me.
On the other hand, I am still wondering what it would be like to go out and work, in NYC which is where the girl is that I'm currently seeing and I would like to be able to spend more time with her there or just anywhere.
What do I want to do? I just want to stay here in syracuse, away from all the big cities, away from all the ignorant people, (at least the ones ignorant to my frat) and just make a life for myself here on this new planet. Going back to my homeworld would only mean that I would have to stay at my mothers place of dwelling, and I CANNOT do that. TO advance out of this system on to New York Planet would be too hard and too big of a jump from where I am now. So my best bet is to stay here on this world and never leave........
Gotta go shower, I have database class in half hour.
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you....."
30 Seconds to Mars - The Kill
Good Song.
Wow, I really wrote poetry last time? OD. Doesn't matter cuz nobody really reads this blog anyways.
Today is Monday. Great. I looked out the window and saw the sun, and being the middle of march walked out of the house with a hoodie on, only to realize it was 25 degrees outside and that I had been fooled. Again.
have been feeling very foolish as of late. This feeling has been caused by many different events that have happened as of current. I drove my best friends BW all weekend and burned his clutch every minute. I sent a short message to my ex, and got some bogus premeditated bitchy msg back, and then I sent her a text saying good job in her show and got no reply. I am so freakin done its not even funny.
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You know when I started writing this, my day was feeling kind of sucky, but now, I end this day feeling good. I had some good quality time with three good friends, and that told me I was doing something right. Im still working on applying for grad school but the application has come to a stand still now that I am off spring break. I am also trying to graduate this coming May yet for the fact that have 21 more credits to complete, I will be be here for a while longer. Even though I am not stressing out as much as I should be, there is a great chance that I wont be able to come back if I don't get a loan to. This truly bothers me.
On the other hand, I am still wondering what it would be like to go out and work, in NYC which is where the girl is that I'm currently seeing and I would like to be able to spend more time with her there or just anywhere.
What do I want to do? I just want to stay here in syracuse, away from all the big cities, away from all the ignorant people, (at least the ones ignorant to my frat) and just make a life for myself here on this new planet. Going back to my homeworld would only mean that I would have to stay at my mothers place of dwelling, and I CANNOT do that. TO advance out of this system on to New York Planet would be too hard and too big of a jump from where I am now. So my best bet is to stay here on this world and never leave........
Gotta go shower, I have database class in half hour.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
WHY? i dont know
My thoughts are turning to dreams,
its all illusions that feel surreal,
I never just look at the clouds anymore,
because my face is made of steel.
Everything is joke, but nothing is funny,
if there was such a thing as luck,
It would be like my hair; short.
I AM THE DEFINITION OF CLUMSY.
All book knowledge and no common sense,
I always argue and I always lose,
because the wrong words come to my defense.
My brain feels alien sometimes,
my way of thinking is abnormal,
but what is normal anyways?
I never think in a straight line; thoughts, like bullets, go astray.
Rain today, sun tomorrow,
my mistakes with L cause a feeling of sorrow.
What more can I say?
What more can I do?
When I try my hardest to understand you?
I posses tools like no other,
its all illusions that feel surreal,
I never just look at the clouds anymore,
because my face is made of steel.
Everything is joke, but nothing is funny,
if there was such a thing as luck,
It would be like my hair; short.
I AM THE DEFINITION OF CLUMSY.
All book knowledge and no common sense,
I always argue and I always lose,
because the wrong words come to my defense.
My brain feels alien sometimes,
my way of thinking is abnormal,
but what is normal anyways?
I never think in a straight line; thoughts, like bullets, go astray.
Rain today, sun tomorrow,
my mistakes with L cause a feeling of sorrow.
What more can I say?
What more can I do?
When I try my hardest to understand you?
I posses tools like no other,
Post 2
"......I want the money, money and the cars, cars and the clothes, the hoes; I suppose........."
Drake ft Trey Songz - Successful
Happy St Patricks Day
I hate looking at this website.
I hate blogging.
I hate doing this.
It was 55 degrees outside today. The best weather we've had up here for a long long time.
I walked around today with only thoughts of my responsibilities on my mind; but funny how the real things you want to think about creep up and steal the show. I found myself thinking about God, the only woman in my life right now, and my flaws. These are things I want to think about because I am religious, and was raised that way, and women are a integral part of my level of happiness in my life, and my flaws reflect on the fact that I'm always trying to make myself a better man.
This is incredible because I never would have thought, nor could I imagine that I would have made it this far in life. But now that I am here, I find myself asking why because I have made so many big mistakes, that it must be only by the grace of God that I am where I am now. My brothers usually say I'm hard on myself. I feel as though I am not doing a lot of things I need to be doing right now, and it makes me frustrated with myself.
Without getting too specific I know that no matter what I think about, or whatever issue I'm handling as long as I pray about, things go exactly the way they're supposed to go. I know that we don't alwasy get our way in life, I almost never get my way yet somehow I find myself being content with the way things have turned out, especially in my sticky situations. I feel as though if things didn't happen the way they did for I wouldnt be where I am exactly at this moment.
I have to much to say still---im going to sleep now. I have too many Z's to catch up on......
Drake ft Trey Songz - Successful
Happy St Patricks Day
I hate looking at this website.
I hate blogging.
I hate doing this.
It was 55 degrees outside today. The best weather we've had up here for a long long time.
I walked around today with only thoughts of my responsibilities on my mind; but funny how the real things you want to think about creep up and steal the show. I found myself thinking about God, the only woman in my life right now, and my flaws. These are things I want to think about because I am religious, and was raised that way, and women are a integral part of my level of happiness in my life, and my flaws reflect on the fact that I'm always trying to make myself a better man.
This is incredible because I never would have thought, nor could I imagine that I would have made it this far in life. But now that I am here, I find myself asking why because I have made so many big mistakes, that it must be only by the grace of God that I am where I am now. My brothers usually say I'm hard on myself. I feel as though I am not doing a lot of things I need to be doing right now, and it makes me frustrated with myself.
Without getting too specific I know that no matter what I think about, or whatever issue I'm handling as long as I pray about, things go exactly the way they're supposed to go. I know that we don't alwasy get our way in life, I almost never get my way yet somehow I find myself being content with the way things have turned out, especially in my sticky situations. I feel as though if things didn't happen the way they did for I wouldnt be where I am exactly at this moment.
I have to much to say still---im going to sleep now. I have too many Z's to catch up on......
Thursday, March 5, 2009
GREAT
I have to blog yet again for another class. I hate blogging. Its so retard and I think its only for emotional people like girls and socially rejected adults.
The first blog I had was fun to write, and I think this one should just be a continuation of that just a little bit more NOT about girls. Even tho its nice and all...Im not so focused on girls as I was before. Hmmmm maybe I should go back and check to see if there were any comments on my last real blog. Just a little FYI: I will be writing this as if no1 is reading, just pour mind vomit of thoughts from my head in hopes of a way to relieve some stress probably.
Some people found my last blog and I dont know, probably becasue I gave away too much info about how to find it, but I can garuntee you that no1 will find this one with the strange URL and the username I have I really hope no1 will find this.
SO as I sit in the lab, in the basement of hinds hall I can only think where I am now and where Ive come from since the last time we spoke, blogger.com. I must also make you aware of the fact that I am bouncing back and forth from this and my IST 459 work because I ahve an assignment due tom and Im just going to get it done. While I am also sitting here I am waiting for a text message reply from a very special someone that has only entered my life very recently, yet I refer to her as such. SHe ios at dance practice right now in Harlem, and I all I can think about is trying to go to NYC for spring break just to be with her. I am struggling with getting too mentally entwined in this girl, seeing as she is such a free spirit, and becasue I just got out of a relationship with L, my last, one and only, high maitenence girlfriend. OH MY GOD please remind to never do that again. What a freakin headache. You know what my problem is, is that I settle. I just settle for whatever ol' halway pretty halfway decnt girl that matches up on a few levels with me, and say fuck it for the rest. And now, just now in writing this I know why: beacsue I dont take nor do I plan to ever take any of these relationships seriously. these NY girls will be the death of me. And I aslo think that TC, the one backl home for me is the one im gonna marry anyweays so why not have a little fun while I'm here. Ill just make a few girls feel special while im here and then jsut move on with things with TC when i leave. Well since then things have changed. I met one other female, J, T that left a long last impression on me and I really honestly do wish I could pursue her after I get out of college. I really could see myself building a future with her. But now, this new girl the duece, has stepped on the scene and is pushing over that portrait my mind has painted. oDeep down I really hope for something long term with her, but the smarter thing to do would be just relax and dont take her seriously at all and talk off and on, but I dont want to listen to what my bros say.
I do have to take it easy i know that, becasue I fall in love too quickly with females but this one matches me on many different levels and I think that calls for some serious quality time together. We did things together that I didnt think I would get to do with her in such a way that may have meant more to me than it did for her. So the biggest thing on my mind is "how should I treast this situation to make it come out the way I want it to?" and No1 has the answer to that.
I am soo verry worried about what I am gonna do after this year it not even funny. I dont even know if I am going to graduate this may or not. I dont know if im gonna walk or whatever and
Im just getting hungry again right now.
But I honestly cvant even tell you how incredibly nervous I am about what to do this summer or this fall. I ahve 3 options, stay here in Cuse and work or itern and take the 6 credits I need to legitamately get a diploma, or just go home to boston and get the six credits and go live in NYC and just get an internship and find a way to take the six credits there. Either way I hneed to find a way to get the rest of those credits so I can do grad school in teh fall up here. and thats if I graduate.
I have to stop texting it driving me nuts
WTF am I gonna do? I honestly have been getting back into the habit of going to church and doing my daily devotions so I can just get back in touch with what God's plan is for my life becasue I know if I do it his way I cant go wrong. I kniow all the right doors will be openned for me and I will feel relaxed about everything. Its funny that despite all that I am going thru, I can just thank God for everything I have no matter what and I will alwasy do that..... becasue it could alwasy be worse.
later my ahnds hurt
The first blog I had was fun to write, and I think this one should just be a continuation of that just a little bit more NOT about girls. Even tho its nice and all...Im not so focused on girls as I was before. Hmmmm maybe I should go back and check to see if there were any comments on my last real blog. Just a little FYI: I will be writing this as if no1 is reading, just pour mind vomit of thoughts from my head in hopes of a way to relieve some stress probably.
Some people found my last blog and I dont know, probably becasue I gave away too much info about how to find it, but I can garuntee you that no1 will find this one with the strange URL and the username I have I really hope no1 will find this.
SO as I sit in the lab, in the basement of hinds hall I can only think where I am now and where Ive come from since the last time we spoke, blogger.com. I must also make you aware of the fact that I am bouncing back and forth from this and my IST 459 work because I ahve an assignment due tom and Im just going to get it done. While I am also sitting here I am waiting for a text message reply from a very special someone that has only entered my life very recently, yet I refer to her as such. SHe ios at dance practice right now in Harlem, and I all I can think about is trying to go to NYC for spring break just to be with her. I am struggling with getting too mentally entwined in this girl, seeing as she is such a free spirit, and becasue I just got out of a relationship with L, my last, one and only, high maitenence girlfriend. OH MY GOD please remind to never do that again. What a freakin headache. You know what my problem is, is that I settle. I just settle for whatever ol' halway pretty halfway decnt girl that matches up on a few levels with me, and say fuck it for the rest. And now, just now in writing this I know why: beacsue I dont take nor do I plan to ever take any of these relationships seriously. these NY girls will be the death of me. And I aslo think that TC, the one backl home for me is the one im gonna marry anyweays so why not have a little fun while I'm here. Ill just make a few girls feel special while im here and then jsut move on with things with TC when i leave. Well since then things have changed. I met one other female, J, T that left a long last impression on me and I really honestly do wish I could pursue her after I get out of college. I really could see myself building a future with her. But now, this new girl the duece, has stepped on the scene and is pushing over that portrait my mind has painted. oDeep down I really hope for something long term with her, but the smarter thing to do would be just relax and dont take her seriously at all and talk off and on, but I dont want to listen to what my bros say.
I do have to take it easy i know that, becasue I fall in love too quickly with females but this one matches me on many different levels and I think that calls for some serious quality time together. We did things together that I didnt think I would get to do with her in such a way that may have meant more to me than it did for her. So the biggest thing on my mind is "how should I treast this situation to make it come out the way I want it to?" and No1 has the answer to that.
I am soo verry worried about what I am gonna do after this year it not even funny. I dont even know if I am going to graduate this may or not. I dont know if im gonna walk or whatever and
Im just getting hungry again right now.
But I honestly cvant even tell you how incredibly nervous I am about what to do this summer or this fall. I ahve 3 options, stay here in Cuse and work or itern and take the 6 credits I need to legitamately get a diploma, or just go home to boston and get the six credits and go live in NYC and just get an internship and find a way to take the six credits there. Either way I hneed to find a way to get the rest of those credits so I can do grad school in teh fall up here. and thats if I graduate.
I have to stop texting it driving me nuts
WTF am I gonna do? I honestly have been getting back into the habit of going to church and doing my daily devotions so I can just get back in touch with what God's plan is for my life becasue I know if I do it his way I cant go wrong. I kniow all the right doors will be openned for me and I will feel relaxed about everything. Its funny that despite all that I am going thru, I can just thank God for everything I have no matter what and I will alwasy do that..... becasue it could alwasy be worse.
later my ahnds hurt
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