">What do I do, what do I say
Gotta get us back to the way
That we used to be back in the day
Who do I call to talk to
Shawty, you ain't gotta be scared of me
All we need is therapy
Like 1, 2, 3, 4 get the hell up out my door
5, 6, 7, 8 I don't need your sex, I'll masturbate
9, 10, 11, 12 you can go to hell all I care, yeah
Can't do it shawty, can't deal with you babe
Can't handle the pressure of you (yeah yeah)
Can't do it shawty, can't deal with you babe
Can't handle the pressure of you (yeah yeah) "
T pain- Kanye West - Therapy
She is incredible. Whats more incredible is the way I can tell the future at a time I wish was like everyone else and watched things go by.
I'm in pain. I've been denying it all day, but im in a tremendous amount of pain. since sitting in this room last night and hearing what I heard, I've felt like my stomach and all my other central organs have been removed from my body and layed out on an ironing board to be steam pressed and hung out to dry. I feel as though I am inside out. I cried, but no tears came out.
This is what comes over me when to person you are with reveals to you that there is someone else in the picture, and you are no longer the star in her sky. The person you were beginning ot feel as though you might love them. One way....or another.
Life was meant to be lived alone.
I got off the bus today and ran home. I dont know what made me do it but it felt good. I wanted to hit something, I wanted to fight someone, I wanted to go one on one with someone in a cage and rip their heart out. So a jog was in order. When I reached my front gate, I felt like crying agian, my face said this, but I looked in the sky and yet again my eyes stayed dry, only moist in the corners.
When I woke up this morning, all I could do was smile and laugh on my way to work with her. I was in a passive aggressive mode and it just sucked so bad all I could do was laugh at the situation ( and my good fortune once again).
Again, now here in my, I put head down and rest my eyes for a moment, and I wanna turn on the waterworks, but the pipes are broken.
Its incredible how when your hurt how you can be motivated to make yourself a better person for the next one who comes along. Im so hurt and angry I just want to do work and never stop. I sat in the living room and did push ups and sit ups until my body gave out.
I cant be a new yorker, I cant mask my feelings with pride and act like Im not feeling much of anything, I must come to terms with it and embrace and use it for good. I must turn this into creative energy.
I'm thinking about going running in the mornings again, to keep me lean. I eat a lot of fast food out here.
All I can look forward to right now is whether or not I get a check this week.
All I want to do is go back home, and make sure my mom is ok and hit the weight set everyday.
Fuck Bitches. Get Money.
That never did me wrong. Try it.
GOOD NIGHT
While I was jogging home I saw this firefly flicker above my head.......I haven't seen one of those in a long tme
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