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"......Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you....."
30 Seconds to Mars - The Kill
Good Song.



Wow, I really wrote poetry last time? OD. Doesn't matter cuz nobody really reads this blog anyways.

Today is Monday. Great. I looked out the window and saw the sun, and being the middle of march walked out of the house with a hoodie on, only to realize it was 25 degrees outside and that I had been fooled. Again.
have been feeling very foolish as of late. This feeling has been caused by many different events that have happened as of current. I drove my best friends BW all weekend and burned his clutch every minute. I sent a short message to my ex, and got some bogus premeditated bitchy msg back, and then I sent her a text saying good job in her show and got no reply. I am so freakin done its not even funny.
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You know when I started writing this, my day was feeling kind of sucky, but now, I end this day feeling good. I had some good quality time with three good friends, and that told me I was doing something right. Im still working on applying for grad school but the application has come to a stand still now that I am off spring break. I am also trying to graduate this coming May yet for the fact that have 21 more credits to complete, I will be be here for a while longer. Even though I am not stressing out as much as I should be, there is a great chance that I wont be able to come back if I don't get a loan to. This truly bothers me.
On the other hand, I am still wondering what it would be like to go out and work, in NYC which is where the girl is that I'm currently seeing and I would like to be able to spend more time with her there or just anywhere.
What do I want to do? I just want to stay here in syracuse, away from all the big cities, away from all the ignorant people, (at least the ones ignorant to my frat) and just make a life for myself here on this new planet. Going back to my homeworld would only mean that I would have to stay at my mothers place of dwelling, and I CANNOT do that. TO advance out of this system on to New York Planet would be too hard and too big of a jump from where I am now. So my best bet is to stay here on this world and never leave........

Gotta go shower, I have database class in half hour.