I don't know if I'll be able to come back next semester. The truth about me is that I am on academic probation, and I was actually suspended from the university for a year because I had horrible grades after I had first gotten on academic probation. I had go through an entire process of appealing and getting around seven letters written from family friends to let me back into the university and I can't let them down. Last year I was very short on money and I had asked my childhood mentor to ask his rich friends if they could help pay to get me back into college and they did. I got back in and then thats when I got on academic probation.
It sucks, being in a position that I'm in because I had a lot of options and a lot of outs to be on a better track than I am now, and everything, meaning my entire future is riding on how well I do in school these next four weeks. And honestly, I don't know if I going to make it. I should've have dropped statics when I had the chance. I have four classes, well technically five. Intro to Info. Tech, Intro to Networking, Ethics in the workplace and Statics, which is an engineering fundamentals course that I've already taken twice and failed both times. The reason why I chose to take it over again is because I wanted to the two F's erased and a new grade put in. My Networking class, theres a good chance I would get a C in that class. My Info tech class, probably a B in all honesty and my ethics class I'm am really really hoping for an A, because I got an A on the first two tests and theres two more. I know that I am probably in danger of failing statics class again, but I haven't gotten my first two tests back from the professor yet, but I know they will not be passing grades. I also have a test coming up in this class on Friday, and I most definitely have to get a least, reasonably a C or a B on it to maybe get a D in the class. Right now, I'm thinking that there is only one way to do that, well two if I go the route I could've always been going with which is choosing to allow God to help me and fully and completely rely on him to help me get passing grades or do it the bad way. I don't know what to do right now but just pray that I get through this semester with a 2.5 GPA or I'm am terminated indefinitely from this school and that would really suck.
Right now I'm at work studying for my midterm on Information Technology I have on Wednesday and I'm really bothered by the fact that I felt good about the last test but I didn't study that much and I got a D. But all my labs are's A's and all my quizes are A's and my first project was an A. II spent the night before that test having an intimate physically relationship encounter with C, who has since then dropped the ball. Thats why I hate the females at this school. I can honestly say that I wish this was an all boys school, because thenI know I would get more studying done and I would be getting better grades on my tests. But forget all of that, because these stupid bimbos are always going to be in the way of what I'm trying to do in life, but I can't let them stop me from doing anything that I have to do. If I haven't been doing that, I will be doing that from now on.
These stupid wack ass relationships I tell you about are so pointless.My ex J wanted to get into a argument about favors with me today and I didn't want to hear it. C has been meaning to call me for the last two weeks and she was supposed to be here studying in the lib with me after she played me at lunch today but I haven't heard from her and I have an hour and a half left to my shift. She just always shows up a day late and a dollar short. But forget about her, because she should be nothing but a worthless freshman to me right? According to her logic.................
The only good news I have to report is that I'll probably have a job for the sumer because I have a good major now and its probably easier to find a job in it. And thats not even really good news. I'm just happy things are going ok with J, the new senior I've been working on. Both she and I have a lot in common and my only concern is her boyfriend for now, who she was with for four years and is in the middle of a break up with. But you know, she's listed as single on Facebook (shut up, I know) and she has no pictures and shows no signs of having a boyfriend on the outside. Only when she has a guilty spells for being with me so much. We've talked like a week straight since I invited her over for a movie which was a success by the way and I can't get over how good she smells. My deepest concern about her is that she has no buns. She possesses no rear end to gawk at when she walks by. I find it so hard to believe that she is of Dominican descent (my favorite type) and has no ass. Its a mystery.
But now I'm sick of writing and I'd like to get to studying for my midterm on Wed in two days. wish me luck....
Dont mind the typing errors I didn;t bother to proofread.
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